Hung out with my girl tonight! :D
I love and appreciate my girlfriend and want her to know that. i love you. i care about you. i want you to always remember that. i want to tell her these things in such a way that it sticks - that it lasts. of course i know that i cannot possibly say something that makes up for every instance of thoughtlessness - that i should turn from my arrogance and just be what would make her remember.
why don’t you then justin? what is stopping you? don’t you know that i love you and that i show you that?
i know not how to do anything that would aid in this endeavor. i know that you love me, and, as i said, i appreciate you, and i know that we are not on what one would call bad terms, yet i feel inadequate, weak, stupid…. things that i am not used to feeling, and most certainly things i don’t want other people to think of me. i don’t know. i feel confused all the time. i don’t know.
Kiss me. Kiss me and everything will work out.
i wish she would say that. i want to hear words of affirmation, but i have done naught to deserve them. i love you. i want her to say things that will fix my life for me. it’s not that bad right? it’s just school and a little self-esteem/socio-behavioral issue; you can get past it. i’ll be just fine? it is it’s not i can’t. whisper secrets of life into my ear and then my other ear and then each ear again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again and a…. until it gets through my thick skull and i know how to ease my pains i love you.
i love you.
Look at us! We’re Flo and Mayhem :)